Welcome! To the first of hopefully many 'Friday Jams' - today, we'll be jamming with Bloc Party (not in a literal sense sadly).
The song is Mercury and you can click the link just below to have a listen, try to ignore the creepy video, or embrace it if you want.
Bloc Party - Mercury
Listened? Well, the lyrics are quite frankly beyond me. Completely insane, makes no sense to me whatsoever... "Your maid's in L.A and she's not returning" - What does that meeaaaannn!!???
Anyway, that's not the point, what i did manage to find out was that 'Mercury in retrograde' is a thing that occurs three times a year and it's where the planet Mercury appears to 'rotate backwards from earth' - in astrology it refers to a time when we direct our thoughts inward and have difficulty expressing our thoughts outward - so I guess it makes sense that a lot of this song doesn't make sense because he's having difficulty expressing his thoughts outward - if that makes sense.
But I digress, it's a hot ass jam and you need to check it out, below are three more hot ass jams because I'm so generous like that :) ENJOY!
This is a remix of "Bloc Party - Mercury" and is just as awesome.
Bloc Party - Mercury (Hervé Is In Disarray Remix)
This next one is a nice pumping dance track, maybe nice isn't the word, but good all the same.
Roísin Murphy - Momma's Place
The last one is an awesome track from Metronomy's new album - just brilliantly composed also love the video, so chic and weird and just awesome!
Metronomy - The Bay
Sidenote- hope you enjoyed that! Recommendations are welcome!
Friday 24 June 2011
Thursday 23 June 2011
12 Minutes...
AHHHH! It's 23:48 on a Thursday and I still haven't posted - Two choices;
1) Write a post in 12 minutes
2) Post tomorrow and fail you
However, in honor of having watched Green Lantern today I'm going to act like a hero and write an entire meaningful blog post in 12 minutes (technically 10 minutes now).
Ok so, thinking of an idea real quick here....
NO FEAR.
The idea of having no fear is one explored in the (quite) popular comic series 'Green Lantern' which I (being a bit of a Geek [to be discussed later]). At this point I would quite like to disagree with the idea that having no fear is a good thing, but being loyal to my love for Green Lantern, I'm going to say (fearlessly) that having no fear is something that should be cherished, enjoyed and sought after.
Drawing on the idea from the last post about freedom - it is possible that it is not irresponsibility that frees us, but in fact is one's capability to be fearless. Or are the two ideas [irresponsibility and fearlessness] one and the same? NO. Would be my quick decisive answer to that, mostly due to the fact that sometime one has to be fearless to take on a responsibility - once again; Responsibilities FTW.
4 Minutes remaining! Ahhh!
Yes, so anyway, it is in my belief very important to be fearless, it frees you in that the possibilities of what you can and can't do become endless - for example, overcoming your fear of the dark may mean a whole new hobby in Spelunking arises! (look it up, it's an awesome word - but I've never done it)
Once again at the same time, maybe at times it's important to be with fear? IN order to know when you're going to far... You shouldn't have to make everyone else sacred for you because you aren't scared. This once again draws back to the idea of responsibility and freedom. You being free costs the freedom of others. So once again it's important to work with this universal law that is beginning to become more and more apparent, that everything you do has consequences and will cost you or those around you in one way or another. Anyway that concludes the actual post at 23:59 :)
COMPLETE! - That was horrendous. But impressive, and probably a nice bite-size chunk for your Friday reading material
X AJ
The 'Query of the Week' is taken from a blog called 'Break The Illusion', the writer commonly known as 'Davey Wavey' writes;
"The thing about drama is that it takes a lot of energy to sustain, and it requires doing things, reacting or holding perspectives in a way that results in resistance. In other words, drama doesn’t happen to us; we create it through our participation. Our actions, reactions and thoughts are now – and always have been – our choices."
Other than as a performance art (i.e. In real life) do we think drama that Davy talks about here is a negative thing? Or does it make the world go round, could we survive without it?
Sidenote- Yes, it's that time of the post again, where you can enjoy me saying random stuff which consistently annoys you because I'm always adding stuff and sounding like an idiot. Well, guess what? It's more of the same! I'll be adding a new section to the blog. In honor of Rebecca Black's musical masterpiece 'Friday', Fridays are now devoted entirely to music; what I like, what I don't like, lyrics, memories, melodies and beats. I figured this would be a good idea because these posts will be considerably smaller hence easier for me to do on a busy busy Friday, and easier for you to read. If you get round to reading it at all (please do).
Remember to leave carnivorous comments and hacking hate-mail down below, and if you don't have a google account, make one, they're awesome and it means you can comment - GET INVOLVED! We're having fun here, you should join in!
1) Write a post in 12 minutes
2) Post tomorrow and fail you
However, in honor of having watched Green Lantern today I'm going to act like a hero and write an entire meaningful blog post in 12 minutes (technically 10 minutes now).
Ok so, thinking of an idea real quick here....
NO FEAR.
The idea of having no fear is one explored in the (quite) popular comic series 'Green Lantern' which I (being a bit of a Geek [to be discussed later]). At this point I would quite like to disagree with the idea that having no fear is a good thing, but being loyal to my love for Green Lantern, I'm going to say (fearlessly) that having no fear is something that should be cherished, enjoyed and sought after.
Drawing on the idea from the last post about freedom - it is possible that it is not irresponsibility that frees us, but in fact is one's capability to be fearless. Or are the two ideas [irresponsibility and fearlessness] one and the same? NO. Would be my quick decisive answer to that, mostly due to the fact that sometime one has to be fearless to take on a responsibility - once again; Responsibilities FTW.
4 Minutes remaining! Ahhh!
Yes, so anyway, it is in my belief very important to be fearless, it frees you in that the possibilities of what you can and can't do become endless - for example, overcoming your fear of the dark may mean a whole new hobby in Spelunking arises! (look it up, it's an awesome word - but I've never done it)
Once again at the same time, maybe at times it's important to be with fear? IN order to know when you're going to far... You shouldn't have to make everyone else sacred for you because you aren't scared. This once again draws back to the idea of responsibility and freedom. You being free costs the freedom of others. So once again it's important to work with this universal law that is beginning to become more and more apparent, that everything you do has consequences and will cost you or those around you in one way or another. Anyway that concludes the actual post at 23:59 :)
COMPLETE! - That was horrendous. But impressive, and probably a nice bite-size chunk for your Friday reading material
X AJ
The 'Query of the Week' is taken from a blog called 'Break The Illusion', the writer commonly known as 'Davey Wavey' writes;
"The thing about drama is that it takes a lot of energy to sustain, and it requires doing things, reacting or holding perspectives in a way that results in resistance. In other words, drama doesn’t happen to us; we create it through our participation. Our actions, reactions and thoughts are now – and always have been – our choices."
Other than as a performance art (i.e. In real life) do we think drama that Davy talks about here is a negative thing? Or does it make the world go round, could we survive without it?
Sidenote- Yes, it's that time of the post again, where you can enjoy me saying random stuff which consistently annoys you because I'm always adding stuff and sounding like an idiot. Well, guess what? It's more of the same! I'll be adding a new section to the blog. In honor of Rebecca Black's musical masterpiece 'Friday', Fridays are now devoted entirely to music; what I like, what I don't like, lyrics, memories, melodies and beats. I figured this would be a good idea because these posts will be considerably smaller hence easier for me to do on a busy busy Friday, and easier for you to read. If you get round to reading it at all (please do).
Remember to leave carnivorous comments and hacking hate-mail down below, and if you don't have a google account, make one, they're awesome and it means you can comment - GET INVOLVED! We're having fun here, you should join in!
Wednesday 22 June 2011
I Hate That You're Reading This...
It's true; I hate that you're reading this. And by 'you' I mean YOU. You being me in the future, or anyone else bored enough to still be reading at this point. The reason for this, is because you are now ultimately my responsibility (in the loosest sense... also, is that how you spell 'loosest', there's no squiggly red line so I hope so, do correct me if I'm wrong). But yes, back to the point, I have a responsibility to account my thoughts at a particular time using the medium of this website, for your entertainment, and over the past week, I have failed miserably - I'm quite sure I made a promise to be posting at least once every two days, but let's be realistic here, I'm a disorganized bastard, so you will have to put up with these tremendous pauses.
Anyway, the reason I talk of responsibilities is because it is often disputed over whether they're a bad thing or not. One would suppose that having no responsibilities at all would be a good thing, complete freedom is something often viewed as a good thing, but in achieving having no responsibilities you would have given up a lot, therefore, surely with responsibilities comes rewards, right? Furthermore, in having no responsibility, you begin to hurt those around you - I think? (NB - When I put a question mark, it basically means I'm intensely confused and desperately clawing my way back to some sort of structure, do help me answer these difficult questions).
Right. Okay. I'm going to start making statements here. I believe responsibility is a good thing. Despite how difficult they are they bear rewards, and even if they aren't physical or obviously emotional, there will always be self-respect that comes with bearing a responsibility. Now, as I babble on, I am slowly becoming more passionate about this, and quite frankly, right now at this very moment at 20:58 on a Wednesday 22nd June, 2011, I would slap anyone who doesn't believe that responsibility is a good thing with a wet salmon. This is because by not taking responsibility whether it be for your actions or for someone else's, you're actively ignoring the prospect of making life just a little more easy and rewarding for yourself and/or others in the future. It is quite frankly, Irresponsible. And once again, at this moment in time 21:03 (yes It takes me a long time to think), I believe that it's possible that being "Irresponsible" is the worst quality (or at least one of the worst) that a person can have. These irresponsible scoundrel hipsters would probably say that 'irresponsibility' is just another word for freedom and therefore happiness, and just allow me to take a small tangent here. With the risk of sounding like a 1984 propaganda poster Freedom ≠ Happiness. Yeah, sure, you can say 'That's what the government want you to think' but to be quite honest, it's completely true. Your complete freedom will and always has cost the complete freedom of others. Surely it's better to not get selfish, and just settle for being 'slightly free'. Just keep a small amount of responsibility to keep yourself and others in the (relatively clear) clear. We should aim to not become the person that applies to a quote i can't remember right now. Give me a minute I'll google it;
"Most of us can read the writing on the wall;
we just assume it's addressed to somebody else" - Ivern Ball
So yes, I'll leave you with that.
X AJ
Sidenote - Now today was meant to be "Query of the Week" day, but no-one commented on the last one - thanks. It feels like I've just made sandwiches for everyone but now no-one's hungry. (It doesn't feel like that at all, because there's nothing to eat). What we'll do instead is move the Query to tomorrow, and abandon the last question. So, tomorrow in the post I'll ask something and then you have a whole week to comment. Please do, it would make my eyes very happy (they're feeling a little blue at the moment - puns FTW)
Thus, please do leave you're tenacious text tipples and randy rants below.
Anyway, the reason I talk of responsibilities is because it is often disputed over whether they're a bad thing or not. One would suppose that having no responsibilities at all would be a good thing, complete freedom is something often viewed as a good thing, but in achieving having no responsibilities you would have given up a lot, therefore, surely with responsibilities comes rewards, right? Furthermore, in having no responsibility, you begin to hurt those around you - I think? (NB - When I put a question mark, it basically means I'm intensely confused and desperately clawing my way back to some sort of structure, do help me answer these difficult questions).
Right. Okay. I'm going to start making statements here. I believe responsibility is a good thing. Despite how difficult they are they bear rewards, and even if they aren't physical or obviously emotional, there will always be self-respect that comes with bearing a responsibility. Now, as I babble on, I am slowly becoming more passionate about this, and quite frankly, right now at this very moment at 20:58 on a Wednesday 22nd June, 2011, I would slap anyone who doesn't believe that responsibility is a good thing with a wet salmon. This is because by not taking responsibility whether it be for your actions or for someone else's, you're actively ignoring the prospect of making life just a little more easy and rewarding for yourself and/or others in the future. It is quite frankly, Irresponsible. And once again, at this moment in time 21:03 (yes It takes me a long time to think), I believe that it's possible that being "Irresponsible" is the worst quality (or at least one of the worst) that a person can have. These irresponsible scoundrel hipsters would probably say that 'irresponsibility' is just another word for freedom and therefore happiness, and just allow me to take a small tangent here. With the risk of sounding like a 1984 propaganda poster Freedom ≠ Happiness. Yeah, sure, you can say 'That's what the government want you to think' but to be quite honest, it's completely true. Your complete freedom will and always has cost the complete freedom of others. Surely it's better to not get selfish, and just settle for being 'slightly free'. Just keep a small amount of responsibility to keep yourself and others in the (relatively clear) clear. We should aim to not become the person that applies to a quote i can't remember right now. Give me a minute I'll google it;
"Most of us can read the writing on the wall;
we just assume it's addressed to somebody else" - Ivern Ball
So yes, I'll leave you with that.
X AJ
Sidenote - Now today was meant to be "Query of the Week" day, but no-one commented on the last one - thanks. It feels like I've just made sandwiches for everyone but now no-one's hungry. (It doesn't feel like that at all, because there's nothing to eat). What we'll do instead is move the Query to tomorrow, and abandon the last question. So, tomorrow in the post I'll ask something and then you have a whole week to comment. Please do, it would make my eyes very happy (they're feeling a little blue at the moment - puns FTW)
Thus, please do leave you're tenacious text tipples and randy rants below.
Wednesday 15 June 2011
Recycle Me...
In a world full of free-thinking human beings and a history packed with philosophers, artists, actors, writers, musicians and so on, It is infinitely difficult to be 'original' - in essence, not even the first writers, philosophers, musicians etc. were original, they took what they did from the world they grew up in, from the nature around them, from their family, from their friends. Using this reasoning it becomes a futile effort to criticize anyone for 'not being original' - after all, all they've done is taken what they know, what they're surrounded by, and what inspires them to make something new. If you're not following me here, think of it this way; when someone remixes a song, or redesigns an item of clothing - they do this to one of two ends:
1) Make it better
2)Presenting it differently
Neither one of these motives can or should be criticized - it is possibly one of Humans' greatest qualities - their ability to rethink, to look back or around them and say "Hey, I could do something with that". No one should have to be judged for being 'unoriginal' - as by saying someone is not original, you're basically saying to them, you've taken something, and you've evolved it in a way that suits you - which as far as I'm concerned, it's a compliment.
Anyway, before I leave you, I'll leave you with this quote:
"Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is nonexistent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery. celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: 'It’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take them to.' " - Jim Jarmusch
Sidenote: So, despite my horrendous lack of followers - I do still have about a quarter dozen people who are sort of regular readers, so, because sometimes I get a little dry on inspiration, I want to make sure I post at least once a week (on a very very very bad week) - I figured the best way to do this is to ask a 'Query Of The Week'. Therefore, I've decided to do this on a Wednesday (aka Queryday)
QUERY OF THE WEEK: "Being Promiscuous - How far is too far?"
Leave you're catty-comments and raging responses as well as your infinite wisdom on the 'Query of The Week' in the comment section below.
1) Make it better
2)Presenting it differently
Neither one of these motives can or should be criticized - it is possibly one of Humans' greatest qualities - their ability to rethink, to look back or around them and say "Hey, I could do something with that". No one should have to be judged for being 'unoriginal' - as by saying someone is not original, you're basically saying to them, you've taken something, and you've evolved it in a way that suits you - which as far as I'm concerned, it's a compliment.
Anyway, before I leave you, I'll leave you with this quote:
"Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is nonexistent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery. celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: 'It’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take them to.' " - Jim Jarmusch
Sidenote: So, despite my horrendous lack of followers - I do still have about a quarter dozen people who are sort of regular readers, so, because sometimes I get a little dry on inspiration, I want to make sure I post at least once a week (on a very very very bad week) - I figured the best way to do this is to ask a 'Query Of The Week'. Therefore, I've decided to do this on a Wednesday (aka Queryday)
QUERY OF THE WEEK: "Being Promiscuous - How far is too far?"
Leave you're catty-comments and raging responses as well as your infinite wisdom on the 'Query of The Week' in the comment section below.
Monday 13 June 2011
Boats Against The Current...
So here I am, back again, ready for your scoldings; "Where've you been?!", "We nearly called the police!", "Make me a sandwich!" and so forth. Yes, I have been gone, and I refuse to make excuses (As good as they may be). I made a promise at the beginning of this project, and I intend to keep it, shall we call this 'strike one'? Except I get seven strikes, because I’m cheeky.
Anyway, now that I’ve brought myself to the computer I have finally become dramatically inspired by the eclectic mix of images above my desk. Possibly in an effort to procrastinate from writing this; I lean back on my chair and look up through the etherial glowing dust floating between me and the images of the late greats: Greta Garbo, Marlene Dietrich & Jacqueline de Ribes - mixed with the more modern striking advertisements of Tom Ford, Vivienne Westwood & a picture of Lady Gaga with her nipples out in a “Exploding Plastic Inevitable” dress, from a piece in Vanity Fair. It’s a peculiar and eclectic mix of images spanning from 16th Century drawings to 21st Century modern art. It astounds me every time I look at the wall, how well these things go together, despite the unmeasurable change occurring between the times in which they were created.
Hence, somehow I moved from looking at icons from different ages to the idea of ‘change’. Specifically, the idea of cultural change: The movement in fashion, how people wish to be portrayed and how they are received. We change our selves, all the time, as I have talked about in a previous post. However if we change to fast, we might be seen as ‘weird’, ‘freaks’ and so on and so on. In the same way, if we change to slow, or don’t change at all, we may be seen as boring, conservative or ‘freaky’. I myself try to change a little bit faster than the general population, aka, trying to be fashionable, bohemian and liberal, however, I am not alone. There are countless amounts who are around on the same level of ‘change velocity’ - This is a personal choice. After seeing this in myself, I have continually tried to respect those who change at a different rate, or don’t change at all. I’m not going to see ‘change is bad’ or ‘change is inevitable’ - because neither statement is true for everyone. It is important to respect the choices of certain people to stay the same at a certain point in time (i.e. Our elders, some of whom still behave as if it’s the 70s). Because in a way, they represent our past, they serve not only as magnificent human beings, but furthermore as almost artifacts. Little souvenirs of our past; and we should respect them for that. In much the same way, we must respect those who seem crazy, or whacky, or obsessed with the future, because although they do not directly ‘represent the future’ - they do represent that hope for progression in the future.
Therefore, where I have previously despised the idea of ‘static-ness’ and lack of change, I now see that really change is something that is neither good or bad. Whether change is happening or not or never will; we just have to deal with it as it comes, and we have to respect those who think differently.
X AJ
Sidenote: In homage to this marvelously uncoordinated spiraling failure of a post, attempting to address the issue of ‘change’, I have changed the design of the blog! And, in respect of things staying the same I will leave pictures of the old blog on the blog's very own Flickr Photostream!
I will continue to do this every time I change the blog design, because although it’s important to move forward, it’s also very important to never forget (or at least make an effort). Furthermore, who knows what I may use the photo stream for in the future - cock shots most probably
Also, brownie points for guessing the source of the quote; all in the comments below with your calamitous comments and despicable despite-mail.
Anyway, now that I’ve brought myself to the computer I have finally become dramatically inspired by the eclectic mix of images above my desk. Possibly in an effort to procrastinate from writing this; I lean back on my chair and look up through the etherial glowing dust floating between me and the images of the late greats: Greta Garbo, Marlene Dietrich & Jacqueline de Ribes - mixed with the more modern striking advertisements of Tom Ford, Vivienne Westwood & a picture of Lady Gaga with her nipples out in a “Exploding Plastic Inevitable” dress, from a piece in Vanity Fair. It’s a peculiar and eclectic mix of images spanning from 16th Century drawings to 21st Century modern art. It astounds me every time I look at the wall, how well these things go together, despite the unmeasurable change occurring between the times in which they were created.
Hence, somehow I moved from looking at icons from different ages to the idea of ‘change’. Specifically, the idea of cultural change: The movement in fashion, how people wish to be portrayed and how they are received. We change our selves, all the time, as I have talked about in a previous post. However if we change to fast, we might be seen as ‘weird’, ‘freaks’ and so on and so on. In the same way, if we change to slow, or don’t change at all, we may be seen as boring, conservative or ‘freaky’. I myself try to change a little bit faster than the general population, aka, trying to be fashionable, bohemian and liberal, however, I am not alone. There are countless amounts who are around on the same level of ‘change velocity’ - This is a personal choice. After seeing this in myself, I have continually tried to respect those who change at a different rate, or don’t change at all. I’m not going to see ‘change is bad’ or ‘change is inevitable’ - because neither statement is true for everyone. It is important to respect the choices of certain people to stay the same at a certain point in time (i.e. Our elders, some of whom still behave as if it’s the 70s). Because in a way, they represent our past, they serve not only as magnificent human beings, but furthermore as almost artifacts. Little souvenirs of our past; and we should respect them for that. In much the same way, we must respect those who seem crazy, or whacky, or obsessed with the future, because although they do not directly ‘represent the future’ - they do represent that hope for progression in the future.
Therefore, where I have previously despised the idea of ‘static-ness’ and lack of change, I now see that really change is something that is neither good or bad. Whether change is happening or not or never will; we just have to deal with it as it comes, and we have to respect those who think differently.
X AJ
Sidenote: In homage to this marvelously uncoordinated spiraling failure of a post, attempting to address the issue of ‘change’, I have changed the design of the blog! And, in respect of things staying the same I will leave pictures of the old blog on the blog's very own Flickr Photostream!
I will continue to do this every time I change the blog design, because although it’s important to move forward, it’s also very important to never forget (or at least make an effort). Furthermore, who knows what I may use the photo stream for in the future - cock shots most probably
Also, brownie points for guessing the source of the quote; all in the comments below with your calamitous comments and despicable despite-mail.
Tuesday 7 June 2011
Someday You'll Wash My Car...
So, allow me to take a break from being a bag of fun and just be a preachy motherfucker for a second. Well, I'll try and keep it light, but It ain't easy - furthermore, I'm trying to keep my emotions to a suitable level as not to sound gushy or annoying - y'know, like the "Gingers have souls" guy.
Basically, this is about haters, filthy haters, dirty scummy haters! FUCKING HATERS! Ok ok ok, I'm not that bothered by them, after all, we've all hated before, or even if we haven't, it may have come across that way - what I mean by this, is that we've all at least one of the following without provocation:
- Sneaky Backstabbing
- Nasty Comments
- Shouty Fights
- The Look"
- Blanked Someone
- Sent An Abusive Text/Email/Message/Letter/Unicorn
- Left A Friend In The Shit
so on, so on and so on,
I do not have a big problem with this, I mean obviously It's not nice to be on the receiving end, but you've got to deal with it. We've all done it before and probably will again (and if you haven't, you should be worried because you're probably about to blow up a sheep from all the penned up anger - [sheep / pen - clever huh?]). The thing is, we only do this occasionally, we usually feel bad about it, say sorry or act sorry, and don't do it again to the same person. What I do have a problem with is those who hate consistently without seeming to feel regret or guilty about it - basically, bullying, but I'm not gonna call it that, It sounds stupid, I don't like the word, we'll call it "Huggering" - Like hugging but with -er. Makes no sense, just go with it. Everyone has probably had experience of Huggering (As the protagonist or the victim) at some point in their life, varying in intensity of course, but none the less, we've all got an idea.
I don't and never have had a huge problem, but I guess that's just because I can take 'abuse' per-say, quite well. By the way, If you're here trying to look for a way to deal with Huggerers - stop now. I don't think you really can deal with Huggering directly, as the saying goes; "Haters Gonna Hate". I think the way you 'deal' with Huggering is in how you take it and what you do with it. Personally, I think It's always good to follow the "Loser Like Me" method, internally of course, it's probably best not to fight hate with hate - Despite the fact that showing emotions is a good thing, when that showing of emotions only causes things to get worse, well...
X AJ
Sidenote: That was just a little tiny weeny blog post for now - more 'meat' on the way, and sorry about the irregularity recently, I'm not gonna make excuses, I'm just going to except that I am a horrible person.
Do remember to leave crafty comments and Huggering hate mail below - It's a two way street.
Basically, this is about haters, filthy haters, dirty scummy haters! FUCKING HATERS! Ok ok ok, I'm not that bothered by them, after all, we've all hated before, or even if we haven't, it may have come across that way - what I mean by this, is that we've all at least one of the following without provocation:
- Sneaky Backstabbing
- Nasty Comments
- Shouty Fights
- The Look"
- Blanked Someone
- Sent An Abusive Text/Email/Message/Letter/Unicorn
- Left A Friend In The Shit
so on, so on and so on,
I do not have a big problem with this, I mean obviously It's not nice to be on the receiving end, but you've got to deal with it. We've all done it before and probably will again (and if you haven't, you should be worried because you're probably about to blow up a sheep from all the penned up anger - [sheep / pen - clever huh?]). The thing is, we only do this occasionally, we usually feel bad about it, say sorry or act sorry, and don't do it again to the same person. What I do have a problem with is those who hate consistently without seeming to feel regret or guilty about it - basically, bullying, but I'm not gonna call it that, It sounds stupid, I don't like the word, we'll call it "Huggering" - Like hugging but with -er. Makes no sense, just go with it. Everyone has probably had experience of Huggering (As the protagonist or the victim) at some point in their life, varying in intensity of course, but none the less, we've all got an idea.
I don't and never have had a huge problem, but I guess that's just because I can take 'abuse' per-say, quite well. By the way, If you're here trying to look for a way to deal with Huggerers - stop now. I don't think you really can deal with Huggering directly, as the saying goes; "Haters Gonna Hate". I think the way you 'deal' with Huggering is in how you take it and what you do with it. Personally, I think It's always good to follow the "Loser Like Me" method, internally of course, it's probably best not to fight hate with hate - Despite the fact that showing emotions is a good thing, when that showing of emotions only causes things to get worse, well...
X AJ
Sidenote: That was just a little tiny weeny blog post for now - more 'meat' on the way, and sorry about the irregularity recently, I'm not gonna make excuses, I'm just going to except that I am a horrible person.
Do remember to leave crafty comments and Huggering hate mail below - It's a two way street.
Sunday 5 June 2011
Hey, Look It's Me...
...or is it? Mysterious, no? Wandering around Camden Town a couple of days ago, looking rather fashionable with my ray-bans, sipping a McDonald's strawberry milkshake, walking in a deliberately care-free and confident manner, I wondered to myself - 'Should I project this image of myself, if it's all deliberate, not natural'. On that thought, and coming onto a quiet less crowded Inverness Street, I thought 'What the hell...' and walked naturally. However, as I did so, it still felt as if I was putting it on, I tried to just relax and not concentrate on how I was walking. Upon having passed a street-urinator, a Maplin's store and two attractive males, I gave up - I was concentrating too hard on not concentrating on how I acted. I realized I actually felt more fake than I had when walking in a deliberately fashionable way. I walked on with this rather chilling thought in my head. After ten minutes or so of trying to distract myself from this idea, I sat down by the lock, and embraced it - 'Have I lost myself by acting and walking and being someone else to who I am?'.
It struck a harsh note in what had been a light, cheerful string of notes that day, and it lingered, loud and solemn as before. I searched for myself in my spectacularly messy, wonderful, dark, crazy, fantastical, horny, glittering mind (which is probably far less magnificent than I put out), however, I could not find little me anywhere. Then I thought, what am I actually searching for? If its me as a child, then, I don't think it would be good for me to be like that anymore, everyone has to grow up (even if just a little bit). Then I looked for my early high school years self, then I realized that's definitely not me. That was a mannequin, I dressed up in heterosexuality to distract everyone from the main glittering attraction - me. Then I tried searching for me six months back, but that's more or less me as I am now. I realized I'm not putting anything on - if I am acting in a way deliberately, then surely, that is me. That ability to change the way you walk or dress or act, is surely an inherent part of your personality. You're not 'faking' it - you are it. So fuck it, I'm gonna change the way I walk, I'm gonna swagger and I'm gonna strut if I want to - and if I want to put my silver side up or down to make an impression on someone, that's fine as well. You don't get the entire movie in a trailer, you get bits of it, then you go to the movie to discover, and you can come out with your fully formed opinion. The same goes for people, you can discover more about me after I've impressed or intrigued you with the way I am.
Ugh, I have about a million other things to say, but it would start to sound like I don't have any straight forward grasp on the matter - which in truth I don't, but I've made an attempt, make what you will of it. But I'll stop now before I ramble further
X AJ
Sidenote: Yes, these 'sidenotes' are going to be a consistent thing, I just can;t think of anything to say in this one other than informing you of it's continuation.
Also... [french interlude - or outro-lude?] n'oubliez pas de laisser vos pensées ici et en plus, si vous me detestez, dites le si'il vous plaît, Je l'aimerais beaucoup (pas sarcasme).
It struck a harsh note in what had been a light, cheerful string of notes that day, and it lingered, loud and solemn as before. I searched for myself in my spectacularly messy, wonderful, dark, crazy, fantastical, horny, glittering mind (which is probably far less magnificent than I put out), however, I could not find little me anywhere. Then I thought, what am I actually searching for? If its me as a child, then, I don't think it would be good for me to be like that anymore, everyone has to grow up (even if just a little bit). Then I looked for my early high school years self, then I realized that's definitely not me. That was a mannequin, I dressed up in heterosexuality to distract everyone from the main glittering attraction - me. Then I tried searching for me six months back, but that's more or less me as I am now. I realized I'm not putting anything on - if I am acting in a way deliberately, then surely, that is me. That ability to change the way you walk or dress or act, is surely an inherent part of your personality. You're not 'faking' it - you are it. So fuck it, I'm gonna change the way I walk, I'm gonna swagger and I'm gonna strut if I want to - and if I want to put my silver side up or down to make an impression on someone, that's fine as well. You don't get the entire movie in a trailer, you get bits of it, then you go to the movie to discover, and you can come out with your fully formed opinion. The same goes for people, you can discover more about me after I've impressed or intrigued you with the way I am.
Ugh, I have about a million other things to say, but it would start to sound like I don't have any straight forward grasp on the matter - which in truth I don't, but I've made an attempt, make what you will of it. But I'll stop now before I ramble further
X AJ
Sidenote: Yes, these 'sidenotes' are going to be a consistent thing, I just can;t think of anything to say in this one other than informing you of it's continuation.
Also... [french interlude - or outro-lude?] n'oubliez pas de laisser vos pensées ici et en plus, si vous me detestez, dites le si'il vous plaît, Je l'aimerais beaucoup (pas sarcasme).
Saturday 4 June 2011
Size Matters...
Okay, okay, I said it; “Size Matters” - in response to this, many of the people i know will say “It’s not how big it is, It’s how you use it”, these people are probably those with shall we say “Six and below”. Now, if you haven’t figured out what ‘thing’ I’m talking about, I advise you to leave this blog immediately, and never come back, this is the internet equivalent of a purple-velvet upholstered, smoke filled jazz bar with burlesque on wednesdays and fridays and where the men the girls the boy-girls and girl-boys to ‘come undone’. Or at least that’s what I’d like to think. Anyway, I digress, for me, size matters. I’m often told this makes me shallow and sex-driven: Sex-driven; maybe, but I am certainly not shallow. I do not think that a preference makes anyone shallow, as far as I’m concerned, someone who says that when looking for a sexual partner they like a ‘good personality’, are on a futile quest; but that is just my opinion not my judgement, it is there preference and I will respect that - nevertheless, I insist that all personality seekers, give us aesthetic enthusiasts mutual respect. Don’t get me wrong, If I’m ever going to get into a long-term relationship, (and by long-term I mean more than one night together), I will certainly need a good personality, boring people do not interest me whatsoever. But. in the same breath, I would mention that what will probably be the make-or-break of the relationship is ‘the size’. Why pass time being with someone when you don’t enjoy the sex - if sex is a big part of your life that you enjoy, then your partner should be expected to fulfill that need. If he (or she) can’t, then what’s the point? You spend say 3 to 12 months building up all this sexual frustration until you give in, you cheat and then feel awful. Messy situations such as the one described above is something I wish to avoid. When choosing a long-term partner, I would pass them in levels. One after the other; If you don’t get past level one - game over.
LEVEL 1 - Intimate Ability
LEVEL 2 - Personality
LEVEL 3 - Capability To Socialize
So, although I will make no attempt to persuade, everyone has their own ways, I urge you dear reader, to not judge those who may appear at first to have shallow aesthetic preferences - because behind that, as it does with me, probably lies a complex series of emotional and social preferences as well. As they do say, don’t judge a book by its cover (...although make an effort to have your cover looking lovely).
X AJ
Sidenote: As I have deprived you of posts for an entire day, I will be posting twice today - so yeah. Also, this episode of london loveliness is coming to a close, I will be returning in the summer for quite some time but there will be much to come over the next week or so in terms of that.
Also, do remember to leave your perfect pondering and cocky complaints below, it would make me happy in my pants - or unhappy, depending on what you leave.
LEVEL 1 - Intimate Ability
LEVEL 2 - Personality
LEVEL 3 - Capability To Socialize
So, although I will make no attempt to persuade, everyone has their own ways, I urge you dear reader, to not judge those who may appear at first to have shallow aesthetic preferences - because behind that, as it does with me, probably lies a complex series of emotional and social preferences as well. As they do say, don’t judge a book by its cover (...although make an effort to have your cover looking lovely).
X AJ
Sidenote: As I have deprived you of posts for an entire day, I will be posting twice today - so yeah. Also, this episode of london loveliness is coming to a close, I will be returning in the summer for quite some time but there will be much to come over the next week or so in terms of that.
Also, do remember to leave your perfect pondering and cocky complaints below, it would make me happy in my pants - or unhappy, depending on what you leave.
Thursday 2 June 2011
Don't Read...
Sitting on a train down to London, I am surrounded by signs and contraptions on walls declaring “PENALTY FOR IMPROPER USE”, “FOR USE ONLY IN EMERGENCY” & “DON’T PRESS” - Amidst all this discouragement, I still feel these signs and devices beckoning me towards them, wanting to be set off, because despite the warnings of “DON’T PUSH”, all I can read is “PUSH!”. This brought to my attention the attraction all people have (and i would seem me in particular) to doing exactly what people tell you not to, for the simple reason that, you’ve been told not to. It’s possibly one of the most irrational and idiotic part of human behavior, as for the most part, these warning signs and deterrers are for our own good. This however does not just apply to emergency brakes and fire alarms - it occurred to me that this sort of pattern actually reoccurs consistently through many parts of our lives:
Smoking
Drinking
Never minding the gap
Standing on the edge of the platform
Big red buttons causing the horrible nuclear demise of the planet etc...
...and also, with relationships, whether it is at a sexual, platonic or emotional level. As we roll like balls of blu-tac through the messy office floor of life, we pick up dust and occasionally stick to other blu-tac (this analogy isn’t relevant, but it’s a great visual image). Sometimes the other blu-tacs we stick to (like friends, lovers, family...) become part of us, and make us bigger, stronger, and more adhesive; they also however, bring there own dust, into your ‘blu’ ball of life. However, when we see (...blu-tacs have eyes by the way) other blu-tacs, rolling on the floor, that are covered in more dust than we should or are capable of taking on, whether that dust be the emotional swings of a friends or the chlamydia riddled genitalia of a sexual-partner, most people, continue to take that risk, hoping that joining with such a blu-tac, will somehow prove beneficial. Sometimes it does, leaving you to roll in piece avoiding discarded staples and other such stationary, nevertheless, sometimes it isn’t beneficial, you stop rolling and everything stands still until some other bastard rear ends you (take it either way you want) pushing you off again. What we will always gain from these situations, is experience, whether that be experience in life, work, the bed, anything, it doesn’t matter, it’s experience, and that is why we will always ignore the warning signs in society and take risks. Never underestimate the value of experience, that’s why all the emotional baggage, all the heart-ache, all the fall-outs, they’re worth it in the end because they’ll always be the good memories if it does truly end, and on top of that, you have experience. Something you can’t learn in a class room.
I am writing this on the train but the wi-fi isn’t working, so you’re probably reading this in the evening at the earliest because I’m stuck in an office all day - fun.
X AJ
Do remember to leave ranty comments and hate mail below, it eats time, omnomnom.
Smoking
Drinking
Never minding the gap
Standing on the edge of the platform
Big red buttons causing the horrible nuclear demise of the planet etc...
...and also, with relationships, whether it is at a sexual, platonic or emotional level. As we roll like balls of blu-tac through the messy office floor of life, we pick up dust and occasionally stick to other blu-tac (this analogy isn’t relevant, but it’s a great visual image). Sometimes the other blu-tacs we stick to (like friends, lovers, family...) become part of us, and make us bigger, stronger, and more adhesive; they also however, bring there own dust, into your ‘blu’ ball of life. However, when we see (...blu-tacs have eyes by the way) other blu-tacs, rolling on the floor, that are covered in more dust than we should or are capable of taking on, whether that dust be the emotional swings of a friends or the chlamydia riddled genitalia of a sexual-partner, most people, continue to take that risk, hoping that joining with such a blu-tac, will somehow prove beneficial. Sometimes it does, leaving you to roll in piece avoiding discarded staples and other such stationary, nevertheless, sometimes it isn’t beneficial, you stop rolling and everything stands still until some other bastard rear ends you (take it either way you want) pushing you off again. What we will always gain from these situations, is experience, whether that be experience in life, work, the bed, anything, it doesn’t matter, it’s experience, and that is why we will always ignore the warning signs in society and take risks. Never underestimate the value of experience, that’s why all the emotional baggage, all the heart-ache, all the fall-outs, they’re worth it in the end because they’ll always be the good memories if it does truly end, and on top of that, you have experience. Something you can’t learn in a class room.
I am writing this on the train but the wi-fi isn’t working, so you’re probably reading this in the evening at the earliest because I’m stuck in an office all day - fun.
X AJ
Do remember to leave ranty comments and hate mail below, it eats time, omnomnom.
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